I’ve written before about how I feel like exercise plays a huge role in controlling my psoriasis. My new job means commuting to CT for the first few months, so I’ve been getting home late and exhausted with no motivation to hit the gym. So I decided to join a local gym to give myself no more excuses.
The gym I go to by home is only 3 blocks away, so I never have any reason to change in the locker room. But with my new gym, I’m going straight from the office so will be using it to change. So far I’ve been to the gym twice this week and both times in the locker room I’ve gotten the double-take and the stare down. I currently have spots across my stomach, chest and back so I know exactly what they were looking at. The “double-taker” even whispered to her friend “did you see that girl’s stomach” and since I don’t have a six-pack (yet) I know it wasn’t in admiration!
The sad thing is that I’m used to those kinds of looks and confused whispers. And the only reason that I’m 90% fine with it is because I know they are uneducated about what psoriasis is. When people ask me outright, I’m perfectly comfortable explaining what my spots are. If they just stare and whisper, I don’t bother because it’s not worth my time. But there is that 10% of the time, when it makes me feel uncomfortable and unsure of myself. I think 10% is a pretty low number and I’m fine with it because I’m human. Those girls have their things that make them uncomfortable and insecure too, but I don’t wish on them that someone points their things out in such a blatant way.
Ladies, we have to stick together! Why can’t we focus on each other’s (and our own) positive attributes instead of singling out the negatives?